Friday, April 29, 2011
In just one day, a 9 years friendship ended. Due to a guy. How good. I dint expect her to end the friendship just because of him. I tried to stop contacting him. but.. things just doesnt work out. he still sms me.. i cant blame him. i know why he wouldnt stop sms-ing me. But she doesn't. She blame me for all the ill treatment that he did to her. She said it was me who make him do that to her. Come on S**, you know i wont do that to u. you know i will nvr have the heart to do that to u. Why must u say that i tried snatching him away from you? why must u say that i dont understand your feelings? i did understand, thats why i dint tell him what u said.. thats why i dint sms him. thats why im willing to get hurt/scolded and all by him... JUST FOR YOU!!! but u dint see it. u dint s**. My heart shattered into million pieces when he scolded me.. and u.. giving me a cold shoulder. How worst can my day be? Honestly, i myself dont know whats the status of the relationship between me and him. At times, we're good. at times we're not. Its hard to be close to him. with the presence of his sister and now u. i did my best not to let anyone got hurt. even if that means i'm the one who will be getting hurt.. who will cry my heart out to myself. i tried S**. u dont know how hurt i am when i read his msges scolding me when i said i wanna draw a line between us in the friendship... i ignored.. i ignored s**. everytime i remembered the msg, tears will drop by itself. it hurts sha. really. i'm unable to concentrate in class. im unable to do my test.. im unable to do my homework. i cant do my work just because of that... and now, ive got msges from u stating that u hate the sight of me. u cant stand looking at me. just because of him? i'm really disappointed in u sha. u just dont know how much i tried to make sure i wont get into your way with him. but why must this end this way? i treasure the friendship we had. But then, i also realise i want to keep the friendship between me and him as close as possible. You tell me, what am i suppose to do? What will u do if ure in my shoe, Sha? WHAT??
Love, @ 11:43:00 PM
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