Wednesday, March 14, 2007
hmm...i miss someone...we used to go out together most of the sundae...or msging each other...haixxx....it's all mai fault....if my mood didnt swing det dae...i'm sure everything is okey by now...haixx....can i turn back time???haixx...how i wish i could...life izzen good...haix...maybe being alone is the best wae...cox...by being alone...u wont hurt others...and they wont feel hurt by ur words...ur actions....and the wae euu treat them....hmm....jux to clear things up...i'm not the type of person whu easily get angry especially to the person whu i'm close wit...so it wont be possible that i'm angry jux because u're wit her ryte???i'm glad u guys are back together...and i tried mai best to make euu guys together...and wad reason do i have to get angry wit u cox u played wit her???i realli hope things could settle by next week....haixx...onE of the person whu i think understand mie most...actualli didnt turn up to be that wae....i thought it's clear that i didnt get angry...i'm jux upsad...u guys go change w/o calling mie....and u said u will wait for mie while i change...but u didnt...that's all...sometimes it's hard to go around making people happy but u, urself are not happie...hmm...i tried being happie...laugh...crack jokes in school...no one noes how mani pails of tears i've collected through out this year....not even half of the year....it's onli 3 month...i've cried a lot....wad happen to mie???i'm too stress...mai mind is so messy...i cant think straight...(not to worry...i noe wad i'm not suppose to do)...haixx....studies??gone down the drain....family???still can survive....friends???i donnoe....like i said b4...i realli felt rejected...i realli donnoe wad's the used of mie staying in this world...izzit to make people take advantage of mie???izzit to make people got hurt???izzit driving mie to commiting suiside???haixx...sometimes...i feel dying is the best wae...if i die...i wont hurt people...if i die...i wont add on to the burden...and if i die...NO ONE CARES!!! no one will cry for mie....no one will miss mie....and no one will ever remember me after that....ARGGHHH!!!!i realli hate this life....thought going sec 5 will have no probs...will have no stupid problems...will have no misunderstanding...as SEC 5 is MATURE ENUF TO THINK....but it the reality is...NO....it's not like wad i thought it could be.... " going sec 5...i dont wanna fight wit u...i dont wanna get separated wit u....onli u whu understand mie...i onli will stick wit u... " that goes down the drain....everythng started to change jux because i dont wanna go out wit u....i'm stress...cox i failed and i cant cope....i'm not blaming u for making mie stress....i didnt even sae u make mie stress....and there euu go.... "fien...i make u stress??from now on...u do ur own things and i'll do my own things " ...wad the hell...fine...drop that...i treat u as per normal in class...even tough u treat mie like invisible...FYNE!!!!i dont cARe...wad upsad mie the most is wen u said cox of mie....troubles go to u guys....wad's that suppose to mean???i'm the wall between u and all the troubles coming??i too stress....and there euu go...asking mie to carry the burden alone...helping u to solve the problems that mie maislef dont noe...common....mai blog...i can write wadever i want....and if people whu read mai blog izzen happy wit it..it's their own business...i'm not involve...fighting wit mie...and want mie to clear up the trouble/problems???u guys are taking advantage...i clear the troubles...and where do the credit goes???to u...YOU...i dont care about the credit going to whu..all i care is...i clear the troubles...u got the credit...and people think that i'm the trouble maker..i'm the devil...i'm the bad waNt...u want the credit...take it..i dont give a damn...but one thing i want...the onli thing is....people not talking about mie...sae i'm the one whu created the problem/trouble...and jux leave it for others to solve...that's all...is it difficult???
Love, @ 10:31:00 PM
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